i hate being depressed.
like seriously? sometimes it just happens. usually when i go to the gym, or when i hear a sad song, or when i spend a lot of time by myself. which all the following have happened.
it all started with this dear john business i saw the commercial again and was like 'awwww i need to see that this weekend' then i watched it again to show my sister. OH. GOD. the song started to get to me, so i looked it up and listened to it. again. again. again. again and again! now i'm to the point where i cant stop listening to it and then i listen to it non-stop and then im in a pile or heap on my bed holding myself and crying hysterically, just like i used to with gossip girl and the song signs. its driving me out of my mind. nevertheless, i still didnt get to see dear john which makes me so sad :'( i need to see it to get this obsession away from me. my sister pwned me and didnt see it with me today and riley offered to see it with me but you can tell he doesnt want to go and i dont want him to sit through a two hour movie he doesnt want to watch in the first place...so that leaves sergio but sergio is like mr. 4.0 over here and has to start studying for midterms so he cant do it until next saturday at least and sergio gets all up and close on you while you're watching and is just overall creepy like he's leaning on you and makes you think he's going to kiss you or something which creeps me out i just want to go to the movies with a friend and watch fucking dear john goddamnit!
so now im in a depressed funk. my mom bought me dear john the book so im reading that for now... i should go though ttyl.
kristin
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