a good friend?

is it possible that i can just be a supportive friend to all my friends?

im starting to think that it is.

that maybe i can just be happy for someone for once than jealous and spiteful that they have some sort of joy in their life when i feel as if i dont? that maybe when a friend is feeling down i can possibly just offer them some kind words and my eyes/ears while they talk or vent? that there might be a time when i am able to think of others more than myself...

im starting to think this might be acheivable within due time. two of my friends i've been trying to be supportive of. like i mentioned in a blog earlier, im a pretty shitty friend, i dont really care about others, i dont want to spend time with others, i dont care about their live lives or their family problems, i dont want to hear about thier stupid weekends or what they had for dinner last night, however i talk about the same things. there are so many good people in the world i noticed last night as i lie quietly awake in my bed that i am such a horrible person. and it occured to me that i dont want to be that person anymore.

where is being spiteful and jealous and alone going to get me in life? answer; nowhere. so i guess here's to me trying to be supportive of what friends i have left. here's to listening to S. yaking about his wallcolors and to R. talking about his love interest. To K and her constant boyfriend problems and B. to her constant urge to work. and lastly, heres to me for trying to be a better person.

On another note i am sad to say i did NOT get the classes i wanted at CBC. since mrs. beraza is a grand *insert mean cuss word here* I did not get my running start form in on time. instead of yesterday by 5:00 i got it in today at 1:30. registration started at 7:30 this morning and by the time i got to registration at 1:40 almost ALL of my classes were filled up. the only one i originally wanted that wasnt full was Fitness Center with Stolker...so i guess my new schedule goes as followed (untill i can figure out what to do)

1. Psychology Stevens, K 11:30-12:30
2. Creative Writing Holmes, M ARR
3. Fitness Center Stolker, L ARR

and yeah thats it :/ now what do i do? any ideas? i wanted really bad to take nutrition with Sergio but i guess i cant now :( it'll have to do, its my last quarter anyways and i doubt that im going to get my AA anyways, i dont have that final science class (nutrition) to finish it. saaad saaad day.

So there was an Anthropology club meeting at CBC today, it was funny, im starting to grow on the people there we talked about having a fund-raiser to put more money into the Anthro Club fund so we're going to show like a movie or something. One of the members is trying to get Zombieland to be our movie. lol, meanwhile we have to pay for our shirts :( *sadface* but some of us are going to take the two night trip to Forks to go camping or something like that idk.

anyways, i should probably head off to bed, june is asleep and i dont want to wake him with my insessant typing *drinks some water* anyways, i will read dear john for awhile i guess, i still really want to go see that movie, but im going to assume im not going to and will simply just have to wait until it comes out on DVD. Unless the unthinkable happens and he asks me out on valentines day and asks me to prom on the 21st of March, but thats not likely at all.... so i guess until next time far fetched lovers...

kristin fort.