dancing in the moonlight

I always feel like I'm drowning in my life. I lost what i was reaching for and now i dont even have the decency to keep my hand in the air. I hate who i have become and the people i've lost along the way.

I wish someone before me had helped me choose my path, but ive never had a leader or a role model or someone to look up to and to lead me. This whole running start shit is a big hole in my existence. I missed out on so much because of it and now i never feel like i have closure, i've lost so many friends, and missed out on so many expieriences it's ruined by life, and if you think that that is stupid then you obviously have never tried running start and had peice of shit friends that couldnt keep up.

Now i'm stuck at the big U while everyone is off at community college. I'm stuck at a local University which is completely stupid, i see everyone else going off to stay at the college, and thats all i ever wanted since i was young was to stay at the school i'm going to, and once again i have to miss out while everyone is going the way i want to.

And not only that, but all my friends are paring up, getting engaged or married, and having kids, and they're all 21, MY LIFE, everyone is living my life, I'm really afriad that i might not get married, or have children, im starting to get old. i've always wanted to have my first child by the time i was 20 and thats probably not going to happen, because i promised byself i would know my husband for at least a year before we got engaged, so unless i meet the one tomorrow thats not going to work.... and once again i'm missing out on the life i planned, maybe if i had stayed in highschool i might of made it work out with him, but now i'm so far ahead of him theres no way.

which is another valid point, i'm never going to make things work out between us, and its so stupid because i love him so much still, almost as much as i did when we first got together, and the fact that he doesnt even remotely harbor the same feelings towards me makes me feel like a useless peice of shit.

which i am i guess, i have no credentials... i havent gotten my AA officially yet... i havent officially declared a major... i have no boyfriend... i dont drive.. ive never had a job.. i dont do anything but wake up at miserable two in the afternoon and go to bed at four in the morning. then take naps from about five till seven or eight depending on how i'm feeling. Im just a useless sack.

until i'm feeling better... ttyl.

kristin m. fort

Depressed...again

One of my friends announced today that shes getting married. How depressing is that? How depressing is it that all my friends are living out the life i've always dreamt of and im just here. doing nothing, alone, depressed, being with my cat who i call my son. Its damn depressing and secretly i hate it. well no, scratch that, everyone know i'm not satisfied with my life.

Graduation is coming up, i still have school after graduation which is totally lame... but oh well thats what i get for going to CBC and starting a month later than everyone else, its only a week and a day. I signed up for my english placement testing for WSU, where i will be going alone because my friends dont have the drive, the funds, or the desire to go somewhere other than CBC so i'm stuck lonely for the rest of my school life, which is only two years, then a year of student teaching, then im off at a job being that one crazy lonely teacher who hits on parents and stuff...that sounds lovely doesnt it? thats probably going to be me though, i anticipate driving the shittiest car in the lot, being thousands in debt, living off of frozen meals, wearing lame clothes and living in a shanty downtown or something.

maybe its because im getting ill or something, ive just been feeling depressed. this weekend we are painting my room for the first time in the seven years we've lived in this house, horray, instead of wood/seafoam green/gray/white walls we're painting my walls yellow and putting like a brown pattern on the walls with brown on my windowsill and closet doors. we're also getting a bunch of carpet squares too so my room will have carpet... maybe that will make me less depressed...who knows...

We got some graduation invitations from my cousin Joshua, once again i was depressed to see all the fine things he has, like the fancy invites that cost 10.00 each invite and Joshua got 50 invites, also about the bigass party they're having and everything, and its the same weekend as my graduation so all the family are going to his graduation instead of mine cept my aunt Katrina thank god.... but oh well, i look like a fucktard in my hat anyways...

I dont have a psych test tomorrow so i dont have to go study, but i think i'm going to go anyways because im really getting angry/sad so yeah... farewell...

kristin

Updates And Stuff :)

So today was pretty cool i had a good day. i skipped out on Gym so i could come home and practice for my senior boards. i went to school early so i could help riley practice for his later today, i think he's going to do a good job, when i was presenting i was thinking about his presentation and got messed up for a minute lol!! i wore the CUTEST outfit ever and as always looked fabulous ;D i had four people tell me i looked real pretty so that was awesome :) while i was practicing with riley i took the worst picture EVAR of him lmfao i feel bad, but im totally keeping it in case i ever need to embarass him ;D i was going to fix up my hair for senior boards but like always i underestimated the time it takes to do shit so i didnt have time to fix it all :S oh well.

I sat behind the judges so i got to see my scores ;D i got 'exceeds expectations' in all categories but one from one of the judges but nevertheless i passed and will be graduating :D i can't wait either :D:D:D:D i hope i sit by some cool people or friends or something :D then i will have a few weeks until im done with college until the fall. Kelsey is comming by this week :) im kinda excited to see her again, i havent seen her in almost a whole year so its going to be cool, although idk what we're going to do but yeah. after i finish college my fam and i are going to silverwood for a fun-filled day :) and from July 3-11th i'll be in Canada for a leadership camp :D:D:D im excited just to get away for a week from my fam, plus i'll be in a different country!! my parents need to get on my fucking passport already.... anyways

so im going to go to sleep, i have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a long day, my classical conditioning assignment is due and i have to go to the gym for 1.5 hours with Sergio so i can pass the class again this quarter, its not too bad though :D anyways, so i better go, i wanted to finish watching 90210 tonight and maybe Glee as well, i just finished watching V with my dad and sister, it was fucking GOOD! i watched Gossip Girl yesterday and nearly had a heart attack at all the giant bombs at the end wooooooooo child! it was exciting as hell!!! I will update tomorrow with more stuff i when i get home from the gym, i also have to catch up on my psychology notes and study for my Psych test on Thursday. I wonder when this stressing for senior boards feeling is going to pass lol.

this weekend i have to write a short non-fiction peice for creative writing as well as a reading exercise and writing exercise for my Creative Writing class, work on my 3rd Critical Review for Psych, I have discussion and an Interview Assignemnt im going to B.S. for my Multicultural Communications class also. As for the things i need to do tonight, shower, fill up water thing, clean room, make bed, brush my teeth, start dryer, start washer, start dishwasher, clean the kitchen as well as watch 90210 and Glee :) tata for now, time for beddums :D

as always,

Kristin

Prom :)

so i realized the other day that i started this blog to talk about my feelings in case i ever need to go back and figure out what i was thinking (since ive done my share of stupid shit) and i was reading some of these posts and realize that ive been covering up what i'm really thinking and feeling because i'm scared of the 4 people i know who regularly read this blog..

so i know ive gotten bad at writing in this blog, ever since i turned 18 things have just been on the fast track, now spring quarter is half over, senior boards are in a week, and graduation is right around the quarter, its scary to see my life flying by so fast.

the first thing i want to get around to talking about is Prom

i had a blast, it was kinda like in the movies and seriously i believe that prom is prolly one of the best nights of your life, because even though a multitude of things went wrong, i still had a hell good time. first of all, i washed my hair the day before which i knew was prolly a bad thing, but oh well, then i started getting ready at 3:30 prom day because i wanted to have my hair and everything all finished before i started on anyone else's hair/makeup/nails so i didnt get screwed over like i did last year for prom. so it was fine and all and i spent a little while looking up music and started straightening my hair *for the french twist i was going to do* then when i started to do the french twist IT WOULD NOT WORK. i tried liek four or five times to get the twist and it wouldnt do it and my hair was falling out and i was freaking out. then i got a massive migrane and started feeling shakey so i went upstairs and got some medicine and some water, came downstairs and tried the twist again with no luck... by the time i was done attempting the french twist again it was 4:30 and chelsea was here, and i know i prolly should have tried to finish my hair and stuff but me being me, i wanted chelsea to look beautiful so i started on her hair, i figured once i had it curled i could pin it up to set it then maybe i'd have time to do my hair and makeup while chelsea's hair was setting. of course that didnt work out either. . . i ended up doing chelsea's hair and nails which her hair was setting and by then it was 5:00. Then i unrolled chelsea's hair and sprayed it, and then was going to put the top up like we practiced and it just didnt look right, so jessica, chelsea and my sister and i spent like twenty minutes figuring out what was wrong looking about it *it turns out all i had to do was push it forward a little to create the full effect* i know i should have left chelsea's hair but like i said i wanted her to look good because i didnt like the dress she picked out and thought it was plain and not so much prom-pretty looking. by the time we finished it was like 5:45 and kailie was going to pick us up at 6:00 for our 6:30 reservation at Azteca. then chelsea went to the bathroom to put on her dress and everything and while she was doing that i STILL should have started to get dressed *mind you i didnt have makeup/jewlery/hair/nails/shoes/dress or anything put on at that time but i got online and wrote to kelly to ask why she wasnt here yet and bitched with her for ten minutes until she finally got offline to come over. then i tried the french twist on my hair again and it didnt work once again so i ratted my hair, hairsprayed it when my mom came in all excited because she didnt finish the back of my dress, i told her to just sew it and she did, then she came downstairs and she finally was able to help me with the french twist which ended up looking very good after many trials, we put three black flowers into my hair, by now it was 6:10 and kailie finally got there, while my mom was putting in the flowers i quickly did my makeup, which im surprised came out beautiful under such circumstances, and started putting on my jewlery as i ran upstairs with my purse, still in my pajammas. then i went into the bathroom and struggled with my corset for five-ten minutes, and then since my dress had a low back i had to use stick on bra cups which are hell to fit to your boobs, and then my mom handed me my dress which i put on. which without my bra, and with the corset ended up being about six inches around too big, so we spent like ten minutes after that trying to pin it to fit *which the pins fell out later* and then while i was putting on my shoes and doing final touches my mom was putting on my nails *which fell off before we even got to Azteca* while kailie and chelsea and jessica and kelly are all bitching about me taking forever which kinda made me mad since i helped all of them Prom day getting ready and i had to get ready super fast. but finally i was done at about 6:45. one regret i did have though was not getting group pics before we left :( i cant get that back which is a shame...dinner was pretty average, on the way to the dance the stupid live like we're dying song came on and the girls were all screaming 'GUNNA LIIIIIIVE LIEK WE"RE DYING" which was amusing to say the least. we got to the dance, took lots of pictures and i swear i've never danced and acted like a loon so much in my life, it was sort of liberating, i felt completely free, the stress, worry, sadness that usually hangs low over my head was gone for the few short hours we were at prom, we stayed until the last song which happened to be a slow song and we left we went out to kailie's car and we saw a guy with a limo and totally ran up to him and asked for his picture, and then i ran over by a cop car which was funny because then i got yelled at for it, then we went to drop jessica off screaming the lyrics to Party in the USA. then kailie took me home and i talked to my mom and then stayed up thinking about prom until 7 the next morning.

i think the best thing about prom was that i felt happy without a date, i've been dreading Prom for so long because i didnt have a date/boyfriend to take me, i've always envisioned it like that, and i didnt have one, and even though i didnt, i still had the time of my freaking life, and i realized i dont need him to make me feel fufilled anymore, i can be happy on my own, even though i wished he was there with me, but i had a shitload of fun and totally wish it was like this last year so i can do it one more time :) i had alot of fun

this post is long and i have things to do. goodnight, travel well

- kristin.

meh updates

ok god im actually sorry i never write in here anymore. so my birthday was a few weeks ago so im 18 now and it seems like ever since then my life has been really hectic and everything, does it feel like that to anyone else? anyways so some things have been happening. one of the most shocking is ive been growing my nails out! anyone who knows me knows ive chewed my nails ever since ive had teeth, while i did relapse im back on track again, i havent chewed the nails on my right hand in almost three weeks and almost one week on my left hand, ive been using this 'nutra nail' nail strengthener and growth stuff, you put it on your nails twice a day and rub it into the nail and it makes them grow faster, i guess its kinda working, its working better on some nails rather than others. but the nails on my right hand are almost as long as the finger now, and theres plenty of white on them now and they lift up from my fingers and actually get caught on like everything since im not used to them its actually kinda funny.

anyways, so my prom dress is almost done, im so excited, i got a new pallette and makeup for prom and i know how im doing my hair and makeup, and while im growing out my nails i did buy fake nails for prom, and i have earrings and a ring for prom but thats about it, oh and a hairpeice but thats kinda insignificant. while i dont have a date for prom i know im going to have a hellload of fun, im going in a group with jessica, kailie, kelly, and chelsea, im going to dance my ass off this time and not regret not being asked like i expected, :) and lots of pictures since my momma bought me a new cam cam for my birthday. anyways, i have a psych test for dr. taff tomorrow and i need ot study for that, and i havent been writing my notes on my other blogger thing which i really should be doing. so yeah

i love you.

kristin

mehmehemhemhe riley

i is dared to write about riley...again -_-""

riley is so awesome because he has short hair and because he's getting new shoes to replace his shitty ones!

mehhh. riley is a pretty cool friend, we've been friends since freshman year where i was totally in like with him, even though he never liked me back....like a boss.

j/k he really never did but i still think hes pretty cool. hes an excellent writer, i like reading his work even though he never shows me anymore, he's popular, funny, good looking, and an all around good guy (when he feels like it)

he's kinda like a good looking best guy friend to me i dont have very many friends but i guess riley is there to listen to me bitch even when he almost NEVER has anything to say back to me. his advice sucks ass but oh well i still love him anyways

after this year we're prolly never going to talk but thats alright we've had some cool beans moments and memories. top 5 being

1. homecoming
2. the whole portapotty/coug thing
3. tenticles?
4. cool beans. *seeing hot rod in theaters together
5. listening to all that fucking dane cook!

and all those times we freaking fell down stairs....god....

anyways. so rileys pretty assome and dont you forget it >=(

or i will kill you.

or unlease Sergy on you.

das right...


- kristin.


PS. RELEASE THE KRAKEN!

Tagged

i was tagged by Fayzey i guess :)

Three names I go by:
1. Kristin
2. Sis
3. Forte

Three jobs I have had:
1. Office Assistant
2. Carnie
3. Note Taker

Three places I have lived:
1. Savannah, GA
2. Port Orchard, WA
3. Seattle, WA

Three favorite drinks:
1. Aged Vanilla Coke
2. Dr. Pepper
3. Shirley Temple

Three TV shows I watch:
1. Gossip Girl
2. 90210
3. Greek

Three places I have been:
1. Canada
2. Alaska
3. Disney World! XD

Three places I would like to visit:
1. New York
2. Italy
3. London

Three people who text me regularly:
1. Kailie
2. Dad
3. Sergi

Three Favourite Old TV Shows
1. Hey Arnold
2. Daria
3. My So-Called Life.

Three Favorite Dishes:
1. Potato Salad! XD
2. Roni Salad
3. Chicken Salad

Three makeup products I cannot live without:
1. Mascara
2. Eye Shadow
3. Chap Stick?

Three Things I'm Looking Forward to:
1. Turning 18
2. Prom
3. New York Summer?

Horchata.

been feeling a little more depressed lately than normal. must be because im turning 18 in 11 days. idk.

on Thursday Chels and I went bowling, she kicked my ass the first game then i kicked hers four out of the other five, on the seocnd game she lost by 1 point which was hilarious but yeah, i saw a friend Kenny there he got really hot which is cool. later that night we went to help Kailie Sanchez with her senior project and gather and put together easter baskets, signs, and fill eggies for the hunt that was yesterday morning. on Friday i went out because my grandma wanted to have a granddaughter/grandmas day out, we went and saw how to train your dragon which was surprisingly a really good movie. afterwards we went to ihop where i tried the tastiest grilled chicken scamich, then we all got our hair cut except for i because i was too much of a puss to do so, then we went home, i got all mad at my parents because they went to Costco without me. then this morning kelly and i helped kailie out with her senior project thing, it was fun but it was freezing cold out i thought i was going to die i was so cold :( but i painted some weird things on kids's faces...they all wanted weird shit like baseball gloves and dinosaurs and racecars...common im an ameture here! all the kids only asked kelly for easy things like butterflies and flowers....and she got all the cute kids too i got all the ones with runny noses and stuff :/ oh well.

ima go. its like 3:00 and i have to go to my uncle's tomorrow for fucking hourdevores. super sp on that but i dont give a fuck.

im going to bed and will be prepared to die because there are fucking centepedes in my bed. goodnight cruel world...

i love yalls :)

Kristin.

RWJ

So I guess I'm doing this adwhatever thing? idk it said i can get monies but whatever its whatever.

so im sorry i havent been writing much, you see there kinda is NOTHING to write about. its spring break and im one of the unlucky ones that are staying home all week, its not too bad but im kinda sadface about it d:

i burnt my tounge on some soup and now it hurts :( waaah. oH! today i got the CUTEST xoxo purse :) its yellow with faux croc stuff on it, and the rest is yellow with xoxo all over it. its really cute, maybe if you're lucky you can see my fabulous self in it ;D but yeah. like ive said before im not really doing anything this spring break, so if you want to hang out and releive me of boredom PLEASE call, text, write, twit idfc me so we can go do something. other than that i'll be sleeping and reading TVD :D

keep on trollin!

Fun. Fun. Fun.

Hello everyone! sorry for the long long wait/delay in my blogs, it was finals week and i totally didnt care so much about anything. I know i failed the logic quiz, and i prolly got a low grade on the Enviro Sci Final, but i did get a 4.0 and a 4.0 and a high grade in Anthro so thats something to celebrate.

So today started my Spring Break :) I have from now until the 1st to take some time off for a little 'me' time. I kicked the day off by spray painting my furniture when i got home, i spray painted my tall shelf and my dresser, then my sister wanted her nightstand spray painted and we only had four cans of paint, so we had to go and find some more paint to finish all our stuff and no where on this side of Pasco had any, so my sis, her friend and i went to look and couldnt find any (like i just said) then we went to McDonalds and had lunch, then we took the bus to Griggs and got the stuff ;) on the way back we had this anal busdriver who pissed me off because he was a fucking savage monster. But anyways, so finished my furniture, came downstairs and cleaned up my room and moved it around, then put in the newly painted furniture and organized and cleaned everything up, refolded all my clothes and stuff, it all looks nice, i just sprayed it with my Lavender and Chamomile airfreshener so it smells good too :)

yeah theres still a few little things i need to do in my room though, like sweep the rug/floor, pick up my sketch book, put away a stray hanger, and organize a few plastic boxes (if you have never been in my room, i have about 17 different shapes and sizes of plastic boxes and containers, the biggest is barely 17 inches though so they're not massive or anything, but they each have all sorts of weird stuff in them, so i was going to organize them, i have my main ones that i use on a daily basis organized, like the ones for headbands, the ones for hair clips, and the ones for hair ponytail holders, along with the one for my perfumes and the one for my makeup, but other than that they're all sorta all over the place lol.

Anyways, im tired so im probably goign to do all that tomorrow, tonight i have to do some laundry and soak my feet in water and thats about it. My mom got me the new 'The Vampire Diaries' book so im totally excited to be reading that this Spring Break, but im not cool enough to go or do anything really this spring break so thats prolly going to be the highlight of the whole break. Im only on page five since i havent read it since i was in Barnes and Nobel but still! :D i'm really tired so im going to start on the laundry and all.


goodnight my friends :)

kristin fort.

11 things.

alrighty sorry about not posting in awhile, as it is this posting is going to be short. but there are a few things going on i think i should let yalls readers know about.

1. i finished my gym hours pulling in a 51.34 hours out of 51 which gave me two classes with 4.0's

2. upon going to the mall yesterday i finally got the new Vampire Diaries book, its going down this spring break, i cant wait to read it.

3. i moved my room around

4. i got a dresser!?????!?!?! hells yeah, im painting it black tomorrow along with my shelfies if i have time.

5. as of ten minutes ago i finally finished my Enviro Sci final, after i finish my anthro final i am going to go turn it in.

6. it is FINALS WEEK, this means that no one gets the privelage of talking to me, i wont be paying attention, no offense but i dont give a fuck what you say to me this week. *up until my last final at least*

7. tomorrow there will be NO post, this is going to be because i have to MAJOR study for my final in Anthropology, i'd really love to bring in a 3.5 or higher at least for the whole class so i really need to get my ass in gear and study hard tomorrow.

8. there will also be NO post on Tuesday as for i will be using all of Tuesday to study for my Symbolic Logic final.

9. Wednesday at 10:00 is my last final, after that im all everyone until i start school at WSU in the fall.

10. sorry for no pictures or anything this time, i'm really busy, its like 2 as it is, so im going to sleep, work up some energy for tomorrow and get to studying as soon as i wake up.

11. i love you always forever, goodnight and travel well.

- Kristin Fort.

Sexy Accent ;)

Listening to Black Balloon by the Goo Goo Dolls. always makes me feel kinda sad and reminiscent. Today was the last day, and to no ones surprise D. Didnt go for it like i hoped he would. all class he sat right there, closer than normal, looking at me, trying to hold my gaze, he held the door for me, waited for me after class, and nothing. I totally thought he was going to go for it but he didnt. what a let down. but i knew it was going to happen so whatever. at least i have nothing really to worry about after Wednesday, wednesday is my last final so then i have spring break to party hearty and then i only have one class AT the college so i can enter into complete boredom and hope i get a fucking job eventually.

so hmm. today what did i do today? i just reviewed for finals, K. picked me up then we went to Pizza hut for buffet and i totally OD-ed on salad and Dr. Pepper, then we went to the gym where i died because i was stuffed. im at 50.34/51 hours, so tomorrow is my last day of gym. i came home, took a nice nappy, watched the OC with PP and RL then i took another nap, cleaned and hung out with my cousin Kristy, we watched where the wild things are which is prolly the stupidest/most pointless movie i've seen in awhile... ummm


i want to go see bounty hunter movie with Jennifer aniston and that fine fellow Gerard Butler...god he's fine, tonight i have no plans but to watch the wedding singer, finish my book and catch up on The Tudors since season 4 started on Tuesday i'd like to watch Howls Moving Castle sometime this weekend, i need a copy for my birthday huh? i can never find it online anymore which is a shame because its a good movie. ummm...im prolly gunna paint my walls this weekend, light blue 'sea foam' green which looks blue to me but mom says its green, im prolly going to take down my mom's craft room so i can steal the little desk so i can paint it black to match my room and get rid of the fucking giant monster desk in here now, then move my room around all calming-like for finals which i will study for ohh....sunday night?

idk. sucks about D. though. oh well i got the rest of my life ahead of me.

nighty nighty.

Kristin Fort.

Duncan :)

You wanna know who i am?

then you have to ask for it you know? if he'd just ask me about who i am i would blow his mind, he would probably be confused for a minute then overtime he'd go ahead and appreciate me for who i am.

I'd probably have to tell him i am proud im from Georgia, i love being multi-culture, I think i look exotic/pretty, i love my hair, my favorite movie in the world is the Wedding Singer and Howls Moving Castle, both of which ive been a million times. Im in love with feel-good romance novels, i long to be a perfect girlfriend, Im attracted to guys with Brown eyes, i secretly think that MY brown eyes happen to be the warmest and most beautiful shade of brown evar, i'd have to tell him i go through crazy mood swings, and i only eat chocolate frozen. Im sure he'd know that i was unbearably shy around people i like, but then he'd have to know a little about my crazy side, i'd probably tell him my mom and sister are my best friends, and i love my cat too much. I'd tell him i can nom nom down some serious potato salad, and i love Mr. Pibb more than any other soda pop. I'd tell him i sometimes i HATE the taste of vitamin water, and thats why it takes me on avarage four days to finish one, i'd tell him i hate writting in pencil and i love getting all dressed up. i'd let him know my favorite color is pink and i HATE black dresses. i'd let him know my dream in life is to be a mother, and my high school goal is to get a date to Prom, i'd let him know i love making posters for presentations at school and i LOVE public speaking. i'd tell him aboiut the dead flowers i keep in my room, and about my secret hiding spot, about me wanting to be a teacher and helping young children, i'd mention something about my fondness for cleaning and about how i get ancy when i havent moved a room around in a while. i'd tell him how i like folding laundry, and doing dishes by hand, and about how i hate loud noises like the vaccum and the garbage disposal. i'd tell him im tired of being hurt, and im always dramatic, i'd let him know i have an awesome singing voice, and maybe sing him a song, i'd list all the TV shows i watch religeously, and i'd even ask him to watch them with me too, i'd tell him i love showing off my legs, and im always hot (temperature wise). i'd let him feel my hands so he knew they were always warm, never cold, not even when im in cold water, or outside for awhile. I'd tell him i leave my window open when its raining even though my room gets wet, just because it reminds me of home, i would tell him ive always wanted to live in a dorm room but my parents cant afford it, i'd tell him about my dad breaking his back, and my mom when she had graves disease. I'd tell him i was a rebelious kid, and was expelled from school for stealing from the school. i'd let him know how hateful and spiteful i am, and how i intentionally hurt and betray people emotionally. and how i love drawing and writing. i might even show him some of my work. i'd let him know i've been wanting a two story house above the ground since i was little, but i prefer a small one story ranch-style home. i might, if he really wanted to know, tell him i have SDUB but i treat it so you would never know, and that it affected me for four months straight and comes back twice a year.

maybe its all too much, but i just wish he'd ask me something about me instead of sitting there throwing me glances all hour :( or asking about the daily bulliten or about a problem... maybe someday...common D. tomorrow is your last day

make it work.

Kristin Fort.

Yeah I Could Go For Frozen Hersheys With Almonds

Oayo Ho.

So i am really sick. like...deathly sick, its hard to breathe, i cough until i gag, my ears are hurting like a bitch and my nose hurts too. Not only that but i have super menstrual cramps so im doubled over in pain and im craving frozen chocolate. which we dont have.

im in a really complain-y mood. its funny how people go back to the same ol' same ol' thing. like they dont learn from their mistakes. and make it over and over again. i realized this from a friend, and from myself. and i also learned from that - that im tired of being constantly dissapointed, dissapointed in him, the way he acts, and the kind of person he is. Im tired of always being second best, of being hated, of being yelled at, and lead on constantly. im tired of being jealous, spiteful and hateful. I think that i am ready to accept my life for what it is, and stop trying to control everything. Im ready to let someone else in. Why should i have to wait constantly until he realizes its me that is the right choice, hes a stupidfuck and he will never think that way, he likes the chase, he likes what is most convinient for him and i say fuck it. i dont need that shit anymore, and i wont stoop down to that level like i always have, i am so much better than acting like that, and SO much better than him.

im really just tired of being so stupid and hopeful all the time. i heard the song 'lips of an angel' again for the first time in years, i was entertained by the fact it used to make me cry due to my feelings. you see, i was a freshfish when that song came out, and around the time i was doubting my relationship with Boy A and thinking i should go for Boy B. and while i was persuing Boy B, i held onto Boy A. in the song, lips of an angel the guy is basically with someone and he loves someone else. just like i was, i told Boy A that i was not going to homecoming when i did in fact go to see if i could dance or at least get with Boy B. LMFAO im so retarded.

Anyways, so on Friday!!! for the first time i heard the song 'Havent Me You Yet' by Michael Buble and i daresay, its my 'feelgood' song. like seriously swaying, dancing, throw your hands up and smile feel-good. ahhh i just love it lol.

anyways though, i finally made 46 hours in fitness lab and i need like...just six more hours to make that 4.0 so i got two 4.0s this quarter yeah! that'll raise my GPA a buncha!!! im going to go for an hour and a half for the next few days, study my ass of for my anthro final and i shall be high-rollin by wednesday of next week! then i have until april whateverth to party it up for Spring Break. Im actually not going to be doing anything this spring break, im hoping my parents buy another one of those giant garbage can thingies that are like only 200.00, so i can clean the fuck out of my room for Spring Break, then maybe invest in a new desk and paint all my furniture black and then rip off the bamboo on my roof, redo the main light in my room and then paint my walls! i want to paint the bottom half chocolate brown, then the top half a yellow-y beige :) then move my room around of course it'll be fun i think :) then we can clean out our backyard and the rest of the house, and then maybe we might look like normal people? lol

anyways, its like 12.05 and i need to sleep to wake up at 7, got a good ol' testy testy tomorrow morning, GO SYMBOLIC LOGICCCC!!!! goodnight yalls, travel well

Kristin Fort.

RIP Harvey

so my dad's friend Harvey died this morning. its crazy i just talked to him not that long ago and now he's gone. my dad is pretty sad, he locked himself up in his room like he did when Frank died, the whole thing is making me feel lonelier and lonelier than ive been feeling lately. this blog is going to be short, i have nothing to write about. my sister is finally home, im so glad i missed her. me and her are goign to tye-dye shirts.

ttyl.

kristin

Sister Sister?!

mhmm.. das riiight.

so im in a bitchy mood (wow before 1? thats a record kristin) yes i know. thank you little bastard on my shoulder i talk to in times of craziness. (Yeah no prob k-fo, thats what im here for. you help fend off the other voices) yeah...stfu self... (no.) i said yes. (you think you said yes, but did you really say yes because if you really said yes than thats not the same as saying no, and if you didnt say no then how would you know if you were really saying yes?) ummm....what?

anyways, so like i said im in a bitchy mood so it probably wouldn't be the best to try and contact me today idk (yeah that especially means you CT.) anyways. i decided NOT to go Seattle after all and yesterday at like 6 in the freaking morning my dad and sister left, i was all sadface because my sister is the only REAL and TRUE friend i have and this three day break from eachother is going to be the second longest time i've been apart from her. seriously, let me tell you a little about my sister and i.

i really hated her growing up she was stupid and annoying and wanted to be like me when i had to work hard to make my own identity adn my own way and i hated her. not just like dont like, but seriously i did some fucked up shit to her as a kid. i teased her when i was little because i was the skinnier one, so i'd hop on the entertainment center and get jellybeans from on top. my short chubba sister (the roles are reversed yes.) had a hard time so she had to hold onto the TV to get to the top. once i did this and she was on the TV and i saw it tipping and i helped pull it forward. well Kaylee fell off of the entertainment center and the TV fell on her left leg and broke it. she was only four and i was 7 and i totally did it willingly. but idk what happened within the past year or so, but my sister Kaylee is my BFF. she doesnt constantly dissapoint me, or judge me, or piss me off on a daily basis, i swear to god this girl can make me laugh ANY time, she likes to come into my room at all hours of the day and never wants to leave because she wants to hang out 24/7. i tell her all my secrets, she knows nearly everything about me, and she understands me more than anyone i've ever known. she does some of the weirdest things like call me babe and babydoll, and i call her honeydoll and babydoll, she lets me fix her hair all the time and she picks out outfits for me, she tells me the truth, i dont think she would ever seriously lie to me. She sucks at cooking but makes me happy because she loves all my cooking. She does make the best cookies and brownies though :) i clean her room when shes gone, and she does some really sweet things for me too, like the time she caught me crying in my room, and the next day she waited until i went to the gym for 2hrs and she went into my room and made my bed how i like it, straightened up my room, gave me some of her starburst candies and a little card with a crappy drawing of her and i that said she loves me. She is the most amazing girl i know, shes going to be an awesome mother, and an awesome aunt to my kids, i'd trust her with my life, even if she does go crazy over the true blood vs. twilight videos LOL! (plays titanic song) anyways. so kaylee is gone from me for three days :(:(:(:(:( its so sad, the longest time we've been apart besides these three days was 6 days and i was so sad because i missed her so much! i hope shes having a fun time with the family and knows i miss her.

anyways, so its just me and my mom this weekend. my brother rickard is here but he finally just got his new final fantasy game so he wont be bothered by us this weekend :) anyways so thats pretty much it. looking for a pick me up? try listening to the song hey soul sister, by train. its a good one. i need to go and get ready, my mom and i are going to head out for the day.

farewell my lovely.

kristin m. fort

i love you desperately.

A tear in my brain
Allows the voices in
They wanna push you off the path
With their frequency wires

And you can do no wrong
In my eyes
In my eyes
You can do no wrong
In my eyes
In my eyes

A drunken salesman
Your hearing damage
Your mind is restless
They say you’re getting better
But you don’t feel any better

Your speakers are blowing
Your ears are wrecking
Your hearing damage
You wish you felt better
You wish you felt better

You can do no wrong
In my eyes
In my eyes
You can do no wrong
In my eyes
In my eyes
In my

In my eyes
In my eyes
In my eyes


- like seriously? knawing at my soul right now! if i could translate how i feel into words it would probably be something around those lines. sometimes i feel truely alive and ready to let love into my life, but then i do just that, and i find that letting love into my heart usually results into me getting dissapointed. But even though i am dissapointed time after time, there are just a few people who can do no wrong in my eyes. and for that i feel blessed by our lord and savior Jesus Christ for allowing that love and passion to be alive today, and to keep me from being as spiteful, mean, jealous, and hateful as I know my being yearns to be.

thank you to all those who do no wrong in my eyes.

goodnight travel well.

-Kristin.

(PS. I will write a decent blog like my old ones tomorrow maybe...)

I got a disease.

You know, sometimes I like to think that I am like an anti-body. i go to where im needed, make things feel better, watch over then until they are good, then i cease to be important anymore. it seems as if i am only needed some of the time and when im not needed anymore i am thrown away. its happened about seven times before.

not that i dont mind, i like improving peoples' lives and having them feel better, but i sense that its going to happen again soon, and i wont be needed anymore, the disease is gone and im still just left here for a short while until everything is up and running how it needs to be. idk when this cycle will break, one day maybe i can fight something like cancer. something that wont go away. then again the person who is sick might undergo radiation treatments and i will cease to exist..

kinda how i put myself out there, and if i keep doing it i might die or get sick myself and there is no anti-body out there to help me. who the hell is going to be my anti-body?! there was only one and i let him go. he doesnt care if im sick now, he really doesnt, if i was in a hospital dying of cancer he wouldnt even know or care.

i hate how i lost my anti-body, i really do, idk if im ever going to find another one, or one that can fight away my sickness as well as he did.

sorry for such sad references...im feeling depressed.

goodnight, travel well.


Kristin Fort

Sleeeeeeepppp

meh, its like 11-whatever and im going to go ahead and go to bed but since im sitting at my desk i figured i might as well blog for a few minutes.

last night i slept AWESOME! like the best i have in years, i woke up more alert and feeling more rested and everything, if your bed is almost as old as you and is giving you back problems, go get a featherbed :) but other than that my day was pretty much norrrrmalll! i went to school, then the gym, came home and took a nappy, did some homework, made dinner, more homework and here we are, i cant wait to go sleepy tonight. lol

as for now im not really doing anything but working on some stupid enviro science homework that is a royal pain in my ass. oh that reminds me i have a paper i need to print for tomorrow, its my final paper too so i hope its good enough to get me a decent grade! i didnt really do that good of a job on it :S but oh well, i need to sleep, goodnight ya'lls. ttyt

Kristin Fort.

now what a cool pen that is?!

gunna post this all real quicklike.

sorry i didnt write yesterday, i was busy, got caught up doing some things. On friday i went and seen Alice in Wonderland with Riley and some of his friends, thank god the 3-d show was sold out, because we had to see 2-d, which i prefer because 3-d movies give me massive headaches. in regards to the present for riley idk if he liked it or not but whatever, i felt like i was ready to die with those things in my room as to the fact that i hate lady gaga (I gave him 'the fame' lady gaga glasses that i made (very crappily i must add) but using some sealant, a special type of mosaic glass, nail polish, hot glue, and an old pair of sunglasses.

Alice in wonderland was okay, it was kinda a letdown though, i thought it would be better than it actually was but whatever i guess, cant have everything, it was pretty good, the thing that kinda annoyed me was alot of it was about Alice changing? like as a person and in her clothing choice, it seemed to me that most of the movie was about her changing clothes or something idk really. and Johnny Depp as the madhatter really got on my nerves too, it seemed like a cross between Jack Sparrow and Willa Wonka, instead of something new and interesting that he normally does with all his roles. baaah humbug.

On saturday my mom, sister and i discovered the wonders of Costco! it was the second time i've ever been there (the first was for like a five minute shopping trip with V and her mother G.) we went through like every isle (my mom and dad got their 'executive' card on friday afternoon) and my sister made us try every freaking sample, she made my mom and i try them all because she didnt want to seem fat, but anyways, it was kinda intreresting there you could say, we spent like 300.00 in freaking stuff so we're mass quantaty shoppers now, we cleaned out the cupboards downstairs (if you've never been inside my house; when you go downstairs into the basement which is where my brother and i stay, when you first come down you reach the 3rd livingroom in our house, one whole wall, which is about the size of a classroom wall, is pure shelves and cupboards and storage) and we filled up like.... a fourth of it and we filled up our whole extra freezer we keep downstairs too. tomorrow i have to go through and make inventory of what we have and then make a monthly meal plan of what we have :) that means im going to write down all the foods and stuff we have, then match them up to make 20 complete meals for my family to last us the rest of the month.

So today, my mom sister and i went out shopping, i got a new Feather matress for my bed and a new pink rug so i moved my room around when i got home and then put the feather matress on and omg its SOOOO nice and so soft! my son wont fucking get off of it!, but anyways, i also got a new pink rug, its not as big as my old blue one, but it matches my bed since my sheets and everything are all pink :) i was going to get a new comforter set thingy but decided last minute not to because i do love my pink comforter :)

anyways, this upcomming weekend i was supposed to go to seattle with my dad and little sister, i decided im going to stay home, im doing this so i can help my mom clean and figure out the house and get it all clean and do the backyard too. also i have to study for my finals which are comming up unbelievably soon. also my mom and i decided that for graduation im not going to get a new car, instead im going to go to silverwood for a weekend and stay over at triple play. but this doesnt meant im not getting a car. im getting my sable painted black and the window fixed and i get the sable for my birthday in addition to something else ;) i lalready kinda decided what i want though, i want this pen that like, records everything on this immatation peice of notebook paper, then you upload all your notes to your computer! isnt that coolbeans? i could write and illustrate some of my book things like that! i can even do it for this blogy blog and make little drawings and sidenotes, then save it all as an image, and upload it to blogspot! wouldnt that be cool? thats an awesome present for me! i cant wait until my birthday, time i;m an adult already.

just do with love love love love.

- kristin fort ;)

George Forman ;)

You know what is one of my best physical attributes? dasss right! my HAIR. its pretty awesome, im kinda bummed its still so short, after the whole hair cutting thing... well its starting to grow back and thats the important thing. i can do some of the things i used to with it, like french braid it and such, i think im going to curl it for tonight since i guess riley's little party thing is tonight and yeah i have nothing better to do so why not curl my hair? i has a present for him that ive been wanting to give to him for a while but idk if i should O.o? oh well i guess i have to now, i just told him i got something for him, so im going to take a picture or something and post it later so he doesnt know what it is until he gets it and stuff, i really hope he likes it though, ive spent like... four or five hours making sure it was perfect and if he doesnt like it im going to be all sadface :( but whatever i guess

So i guess im going to go see Alice in Wonderland tonight with riley and i guess his friends, which there are a few who i totally think dont liiikkkeeee mee *looks all :/-face...* but anyways, oh well whatever makes riley happy d:

anyways, so june is being a poopyhead! hes all mad at Chubs and growling and trying to bite him and everything -_-" rawr. he needs to stop.

anyways...ummm updates, well nothing really interesting has happened lately, yesterday Kristy came over and we attempted to make that bunny house, the frosting was hard as hell to work with, but kristy and i ended up eating more of it than i think went on the house, but it all looked good, :) i did the back and one of the sides of the house, and kristy did the front and one of the sides, and we each did a bunny to go in front, hers was supposed to be here and was like blue and polka dotty and mine was all pink and evil red eyed ;) but yeah, heres a picture of us when we were done with the house :) we did a good job!.

hmmm what else to talk about? well ive been a dinner making feind! har har! on sunday night i made sloppy joes, and monday i made glazed honey spiral ham with au gratin and corn, on Tuesday i made Pot roast with roasted rosemary and garlic potatoes, yesterday i made Lasagna with green beans and garlic bread, and tonight im making mesquite marinated grilled chicken with broccoli (and mixed veggies for my dad since he doesnt consume broccoli) and jasmin thai rice :) yum yum for everyone! idk what i made for dinner on wednesday but i did make something so yeah d: aaaanyways speaking of food i need to start defrosting the chicken because im going to fire up the GFG and then cook up those nom noms!

until tomorrow, heres to hoping riley likes his present O.o :S

- Kristin

Bunny House?

You know what is awesome?

when life goes all perfect, things are awesome, you're feeling good, getting good grades, stayin on top of your social life and your chores and stuff.

yeah. thats awesome :)

yeah thats now whats goin on with me d: I'm barely scraping by in my Symbolic Logic class, ive been late for everything, my parents wont let me drive, i havent talked to many of my friends in a while and the dishes have been shouting at me for like a week. naa but its all okay, i'll figure it out and get on track like i normally do. Speaking of normalities, im aweful sorry i havent really been posting lately. its not that i dont have the time, because lord knows i do have the time to write here everyday, i just dont feel like it lately.

Right now im drinking some Dr. Pepper cherry and writing this blog, im sitting on the floor for once which is crazy, i have to go clean the house soon because my little cousin Kristy is gunna be comming over tonight and we're going to make a bunny sugar cookie house which is just about the equivalent to a gingerbread man house, but yeah, shes excited for that, i have to make dinner tonight which i have no idea what im going to make, prolly hamby helper? idk idc as long as everything gets done, maybe Kristy can help me with that or something.

So ive reached 40 hours of working out which is awesome for me because i only need 51 hours to get a 4.0 in both my one credit and two credit then im finished completely with highschool and everything :D only 11 more hours, actually if the teacher hasent put in my bonus hours then i only need 10 more hours :D YAY YAY YAY! for some reason once i was forced into the second Gym class going to the gym wasnt as fun for me anymore and i didnt try actually working out as to wasting enough time until i could clock out. today i actually tried to work out. all i kept thinking was 'prom body prom body prom body!' and i ended up staying on the treadmill for 30 mins, the elipticals for 30 mins and then 20 on the bike, but i actually worked on the treadmill and the eliptical so im feeling good, my legs are starting to feel like they are tightening up again where i need to start stretching them so they'll stop feelign like they're all tightened up

ANYWAYS... i do hvae to go clean and do some stuff, im so glad its the weekend already, im ready for some R and R. im going to study for my driver's test thingy since my birth certificate should be here somewhat relatively soon, then i can go ahead and start driving for reals! but i also need to start studying for finals which are comming up pretty fast, idk should i go to seattle the weekend of the 12th? let me know so i can tell my family if im gunna come or not. :)

its prolly time to go for now

love you!

kristin.

Dr. On A Diet?

drinking: diet dr. pepper
eating: pulled pork sandwiches.
listening to: Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
watching: These words appear on my screen.
feeling: depressed

just an update, these posts will be kinda short for a while since ive gotten to like....no news to talk about time. Also i've been really sick and usually when im sick it brings on spells of depression. so i've been feeling pretty depressed all day which is lame. i just finished laundry, before that i was at the store. i didnt get much but a ten dollar texting card, a few bras, some gum and some more vitamin water.

So im really bored which is why i decided to write this blog. i have to do a bunch of enviro sci homework which i dont feel like doing but i guess i have to sometime tonight. i just feel like taking a shower and sleeping, but i cant because i have to finish my laundry and then clean my room and hang up my shit and do enviro sci and logic homework :( MEH! *throws fit* but yeah. kristin's work is never done! since i've been depressed all i ever feel like doing is playing the sims 2 so thats why i havent gotten shit done this weekend.

there was this xoxo bag that was at Ross that i found yesterday. it was only 15.00 and SO SO SO cute! it was pink and white but mostly pink with faux crocidile stuff on it. when we went to get into the line for it the line was backed up to the end of the store so we just said fuckit and left the things there. :( but das okay, that was when we went and got my dress stuff :).

so since i got a 10.00 card instead of a 20.00 card *since i had to save some monies for riley's presenty* i will only have 1000 texts so no random texting and forwards please i wont dig that too much... anyways. riley's birthday is this Tuesday i believe and he's going to be 18 and yay for him! :) so hopefully this weekend he and i can go out and do something, i know i want to pay for him to get his ear peirced and then idk maybe something else. i just have to figure out what that something else is *looks into air for ideas....*

my little sis and i got eachother best friend wish bracelettes. i got her a blue and purple one, and she got me a pink, red, purple, and white one and she all got down on one knee to put it on me lol i was laughing hard lol. anyways... i found nail polish that is the exact same pink as my dress :) even though im going to be wearing black gloves with my dress im still going to put it on so i dont have to wear the gloves at dinner and stuff. and yeah.

i guess this is as long as i can make this post, i really got to go ahead and get started on all the things i have to do tonight. my clothes should be almost done so i need to hang up my clothes from the last load, then i need to clean my room and wait for the clothes to be done, then start on teh homiework and all that. :) ttyl. love you


Kristin.

stupid skank...

Okay so im going to keep this short and simple. I am in PAIN. i have a knot in my neck that is driving me WILD. seriously, it hurts BAD. I almost fell asleep in the shower last night, i crashed with my door open, which i havent done since i was like five.... im dying of sleep deprivation. hung out with my favorite cousin Christine and Kristy and Rachel today, then my mom, sister, and i went to the fabric place to choose a pattern and fabric for my dress that is being made for me...i cried because i fell in love with the pattern and the colors, and lets just saaaayyyy... i cant tell you what itll look like, but im going to be awesome in it, and it is pink :) i just need a sexy man date...and for all of it, it cost less than 100.00! what a buy! my sister, me and my parents went to ihop and had a nice dinner, then the stupid skank came and was acting like a total bitch as per usual...my dad farted on her on the way out and sister coughed and said skank at her (me = LMFAO) then we all madeyed her and laughed at her on the way out lmfao it was a good day. sorry i havent been so much on the blogs recently, i mean i knew it was going to happen sooner or later, ive just been so sick and in pain and everything. but das okay. :) love you as always.


Kristin Fort.

New Sexy Man?

So I met a new sexy man while i was dress shopping, c and KL documented out momentous meeting ;)

California Here We Come!

Oh God, Im Sorry Im Sorry, i know, no post yesterday, i was really kinda overwhelmed plus i had a headache plus i was tired as hell.

I did the norm yesterday, logic, anthro, and enviro sci. instead of going home i went to the gym and got in like.....a little less than an hour of workout then went to my lab, i was tired from not going home and taking a little nappy like i normally do. in lab we did boring stuff as per usual, that wasnt relevant as always we did like 10 minute speeches for an hour and i was nodding off ready for sleep because i didnt sleep well the night before....ugh. then when i came home i had a bunch of stuff to do, including my critical review and studying for my anthro test, then ended up crashing right afterwards. then this morning i woke up and couldnt find anything and then i didnt print out my critical review so i ended up skipping my first hour which was a bore because i was really starting to understand what was going on :(.

today was pretty cool. i skipped my first hour, went to anthro, skipped enviro sci, skipped the gym and just went home. i spent a while cleaning up the house because i knew some friends were comming over, then i did some dishes, and some laundry, made my bed, and just sat down to relax and watch some OC when my friends came :/ kinda a bummer but thats okay.

we walked to JC Crew and looked at a bunch of dresses, i dont think we were really seriously looking, we mainly just tried on all the puffy dresses and laughed at eachother. c found a pink dress that was stunning on her, then was sad becasue it was 500.00, kl found an orange one which looked amazing on her, i didnt see CFJ . i tried on a hideous peach colored one and a ugly red one just because they were in my size. and i tried on a cute blue one and a cute pink one. but they were short dresses and i DO NOT want a short dress. however by luck or chance i found a lovely purple one, it was very beautiful and the bottom of it fit beautifully, the color was beautiful and i looked skinny in it. the only problem was that the bust was too big?! that has NEVER been a problem for me before!!! it was amazing i was laughing in teh dressing room because i was so surprised! we all didnt get anything, but i really liked the purple dress. i talked to my mom and we're going to have my dress made for me and it'll cost a little under 100.00 :) so thats a plus, we're going out to look at fabrics and designs this weekend. ive kinda accepted the fact the guy i want to ask me isnt going to, so i think somewhat soon im going to accept Sergio's request to take me to prom., it wont be too terribly bad i guess. ill still smile and laugh and have a good good time :)

anyways, that was pretty much all if you have any suggestions on colors and stuff for my prom dress hit me up :) i want to be able to wear silver accessories so make sure it'll match :D

love you.

Kristin

King Henry VIII was a stud!

Do You remember back when Gel Pens were the shit? I sure do! i was looking through a box of pens in my moms room for a purple colored pen for something and i found a green gel pen. and was like :O OMG! so ive been writing with it. i love the ones that are sparkly when you write with them. i remember back when i lived in Port Orchard i had the most MASSIVE collection of gel pens, all my friends were jealous of me. i wonder what ever happened to them? probably, when we moved it was lost like many other of my things, i wonder if they even sell Gel pens anymore :/

Im going to keep this post pretty short, i only say this because currently its 10:50 and im planning on going to bed before midnight tonight, so im going to finish watching The Tudors season 3 episode 7 and then finish off the season with episode 8 of season three. In case you dont know The Tudors is a historical drama/fiction about the life of King Henry VIII of england and his life, the events, and mostly about his wives. there is plenty of stuff in the tudors to satisfy both the male and females of whoever wants to watch it. love, sex, fashion and scandal for the girls, and wars, betrayal and such for the mens. then i have until april when the next season starts.

Today at school i did the normal. we had a test in Logic and i was soooo thrilled because i got the first two problems easily, then the third through seventh were hell and i just couldnt figure it out so i probably failed :( i know alot of other people mustnt of gotten them so im glad for that, maybe he'll excuse that test or something. idk i sure hope so. we're studying predicate logic which is almost as retarded as whatever one we were just studying.

meh...tomorrow i have to go to the gym. luckilly, i completed my 33 hours of gym time for my 2 credit class, now i have to finish off my 17 hours to make the one credit, so lets hope i can do that. tomorrow im going to study for my anthro test while im there since yesterday was monday and i missed about four shows i normally watch, plus is missed out on American Dad and Family Guy from the sunday before, so i really need to catch up on it all.

but enough of that, let me remind everyone there is NO texting on my phone. idk how or why it stayed on today but i guess it did. woop! i guess i will just have to talk to you tomorrow, im sure i will have more to say hopefully?

love you!

Kristin.

Yeah that is actually Junie...

Hey Guys here's my daily post for ya'lls :)

I just actually finished studying for my Symbolic Logic Test and i went through my binder and cleaned some shit out and then put all my importante papers (like critical reviews/quizzes/stuff like that) into the folder slots in my binder. Im also going to write an outline for my final paper in environmental science because its due tomorrow and i havent really got an idear what im going to write about (big whoop).

I didnt really do much today suprisingly, i went to school, then to the gym, then i rode the bus home, changed into some dale ernheardt boxers, made a burrito, ate the burrito, and watched food network and fell asleep on the couch until my sister came home from school, then i yelled at her for stealin teh cookies!!! then i went back to nappyland and woke up when my dad came home, then i bitched at him because he went to the place to get my birth certificate without me. and big whoop he told me that they wont send for the birth certificates anymore and you have to do it all online >=( RAWRRRR!!!! so then i guess we have to do that tomorrow. then my dad didnt let me drive today like he promised because he was being a meany! so i got to be pissy all night, but my mom got me DINO BITES! :D theyre these kick ass chicky nug nugs that are shaped like dinosaurs. i like them because they are cute. when my mom was done cooking them for dinner *with other stuff too* my dad picked up a t-rex dinobite and then totally attacked my face with it!!!!! i was sooooo pissed because i just barely am getting back to my un-pimply acne face and those bitches are fucking greasy!!!!!! RAWR RAWR!.

speaking of pimply, awesome new do it yourself get rid of pimples trick i put to the test. Get some toothpaste, i think it has to have tatar in it, i used Crest whitening sensations in Vanilla because it smells nom nom. then put a peasized amount on on of your pointer fingers, then use the other pointer finger to dab a small bit of the toothpaste onto your pimples and let it sit for about 15 minutes. then wash it all off thouroughly and then your pimples will go away in a matter of days!!! i guess what happens is the toothpaste dries out the pimples so no moisture can get to it and make it dirty and oily which is what causes the redness and for it to grow. if you have a few pimples you want to get rid of try it, no im not advertising crest or anything, use colgate or whatever you want to. tell me how it works :)

So freaking W and S are fighting...AGAIN. its SOOOOO getting on my nerves, i swear to god i cant have friends without them hating each other. they make bitchy remarks to eachother and fight over my attention, at the gym W and i were talking about prom stuff on the bikes and S came over and stood right in-between W and I and started talking to me. Then W was being S makes faces and mimicking him and stuff. sometimes i really don't understand my friends. how do i deal with it? i ignore both of them for awhile....

Anyways, W, C, and KL and I are going to JC Crew Thursday after 8th hour to go pre-dress shopping ;) this is the stage where we find cameras and we all take pictures of us being stupid in a dress store, plus it helps us get used to what eachother will look like and offer support and advice about which dresses are more flattering for eachother, and what colors look best, as well as we get all excited and start talking about makeup and jewelry. what can we say? we're girls!!! i want to try on a bigass Quincenera dress just for the hell of it lol. dk if im going fluffy or flowy for prom :) either way :D. Dress shopping is usually where the worst comes out in some girls, actually it usually brings out the worst in me....i sometimes....mislead friends if they piss me off? like when i told W she should wear orange to prom and a fluffy dress which i know will be unflattering to her figure XD, but C is safe...idk about KL yet....muahahahha, but then again i bet my friends will do the same thing and mislead me. however i gots my loving sister and mom to give me second and third opinions. the kinda lame thing about MY body is that i have to fit the breasts before i can fit anything else, so basically i have to find a dress that fits my breasts first and foremost before i can even think of anything else for it which is lame as hell. oh well idk i'm sure i'll find something nice :D

OMG i had the WEIRDEST dream last night!!!! the guy R likes *for my purposes and for somewhat the safety of the identity of the guy we'll use RLI (r's love interest) for his name. anyways R and I and a few other people we knew went to a party, RLI was there at the party but everyone was drinking and we were in a room sitting on a bed playing truth or dare, then R passed out and i was sitting on the bed watching a horserace when this little kid in a wheelchair came in. i waved and he asked me if that was R next to me and i said yes. RLI said he was meeting R for a date and i was like :O OMG because RLI i guess lied about his age and was like 12 and a cripple and somewhat mentally and emotionally disabled. then idk what happened but RLI got all attatched to me and then was creeping me out so i left him in the house where the party was and left. and i guess without the help of his wheelchair he tried to follow me but like...strained himself or whatever and ended up killing himself. then i came back and was like crying because i killed RLI and yeah. that was it :)

I really need to start on my enviro sci paper lol. ima watch the Tudors while im doing that and hope for more really weird dreams :D June is sleeping on my lap and in his dreamy dream land im sure he's wishing all you readers well (oh yeah 160 pageviews?! DAMN GUYS!!!!!!) i think within the next few weeks i'll post that video of me singing Santeria RC requested :D.

thanks yalls!

Kristin Fort.

Oh and PS everyone, my texting ran out TODAY. there will be NO texting tomorrow. i have anthro club and gym so i wont be home till around 5-ish plus im going out driving with my momma :D nighty yalls

IS Tainted Love To Fast Do Dance To?

not Sure, but for canadian pop-sensation 'Stars' it is. :)

Hey Ya'lls Its Kristin Here, just finished taking a shower and just chillin like a villan here thinkins aboot stuff. Im really bored and as much as i dont want to (im lying i do want to) im going to yak about more prom shit :D I was looking online and found the most stunning dress, just about what i wanted to Prom, however its like 400 + Dollaras. :(:( its beautiful *featured right* its absolutely stunning, i wish i could make it bigger but it would fill my whole blog. but the beading is amazing and i even like the color, its soft and flowing and in terms of prom dresses its 'the one' its amazing, lovely and so....fucking beautiful! I would get it just for its beauty, it would prolly look bad on me and flow wrong :( but i dont care its beautiful i love love love it! but i cant get it, i know :( i didnt even show it to my mother because she would see how much I wanted it and would spend the 400+ dollars to get it for me and thats not what i want. but thats okay, im happy to long after it. :)

I need a date.. i was hoping D would ask me or something, i mean i know he wont but hes tall? and cleans up nice, the person i want to go with is going with someone else i'm assuming, i really dont want to go with Sergio :( hes weird and kinda momo creepy and i just dont think he'd give me the prom expirience that i want...i mean next to marriage and childbirth prom is one of the most important nights of a girls life! i want it to be perfect....i know im going to have to settle for what i can get, i just wish there was a different option you know????? im here borderline sucking up to sergio because i know a sergiodate is better than nodate to the prom :/ uuughhh i hate not knowing anyone but like four or five guys who all have nice dates to prom >=( ugh ugh ugh ugh UGH. maybe im just a dreamer? maybe im afriad of being let down or turned down or unhappy or probably all three...

Idk ive been feeling kinda depressed again which is royally getting on my nerves. idk i just dk anymore....meh meh meh. im irritated and ready to bite off someones head then stuff it into a garbage disposal har har har!!!! meh :( im always so confused i dont know what i want anymore...im back to being jealous of everyone like all the time 24/7...

ehh idk. i went driving again today, i drove to my grandmas house and we visited her and my grandpa and their new puppy who is SOOO spoiled, oh and the puppy knows it too. shes a purebred sheltie and shes very beautiful, did you know that the breeders glue the sheltie's ears down because thats a trait that is for shelties but isnt like an inherited trait? really weird....really weird.

i need to sleep...goodnight, hope im feeling less pissy tomorrow...

Kristin fort

Creepy T?

So A Few things have happened since my last post. last night i was royally scared to death. my friend T got on IM which NEVER happens, he started talking to me which was strange on itself because i havent talked to him in almost 5 months. we were talking and everything was fine until he asked me to turn on my webcam. it was cool so i did you know? we've been friends for about four years now so i turned on the cam no problem. then he asked me to take off my shirt and i told him no. then he kept persisting that i take off my shirt and was like seriously getting angry because i wouldnt show him my boobs, and about five hours later he finally just got mad at got offline but it really scared me because thats was Stewart did basically before i was molested, he kept trying to get me to flash him and when i wouldnt he had his way.

however about an hour ago T got online and apoloziged, i guess he was really drunk since he and his girlfriend got in a big ass fight or something. i forgave him hes a good friend, i just feel a little bad and concerned for his well-being.

on another note i went dress shopping today, i have a prom to do list and one of them was early march, start dress browsing. my mom, sister and i went to JC Crew which is on Court Street kinda by the Pizza Hut, its a little tiny store but has some GORGEOUS dresses. i tried one that kinda looked like this <--- (featured left) on that my sister gave me and low and behold it was too small and i got it on until i tried to fit the boobs which got stuck, so there was my sister and i cracking up and almost crying from laughing because it was soo stuck, i totally managed to get one boob in and the other got stuck and it WOULD NOT come off!!!! it was hilarious because i had taken off my bra so the dress fit how it would on prom night and i was in my underwear it was soooooo funny. then my mom got all concerned because my little sis and i were screaming from laughing so hard and i got up to the wall and bent over so Kaylee could use her man strength to pull it off and we ended up both falling over in this little dressing room with me in my underwear with one tit hanging out of the dress on top of Kaylee. nevertheless it was the FUNNIEST thing thats ever happened to me in...idk EVER it was soooo funny, my mom tried to come in and help lmfao!!!! I ended up not finding THE ONE! the dress i really want but i have a feeling i'm starting to get closer, JC Crew is really cool because it wont sell the same dress to anyone from the same school so you're guarunteed not to show up in the same dress as someone else, YAY! :D so heres my To-Do prom list;

1. Find Date
2. Find Dress/shoes and jewlery
3. Establish Group
4. Figure out transportation
5. figure out pre and post Prom activities
6. pre-prom fitting and hair test trial
7. confirm date and i are still on for prom.
8. Hair and others done ;)

thats just in plain terms.

so my mom and i went out driving, we went all the way up and down argent and then down road 100. i practiced stopping and going, turning, parking, going up hills, contant speed, and i also practiced going in reverse :) it was pretty darn awesome!!! i was awesome driving and it was soooo much fun!!!! Im getting good, my mom says i probably wont need to go to drivers ed, she thinks it wont even take me a month to get used to driving and to get my lisense so hopefully that happens then i can be like any other 18-year old. Plus she accidentally let it slip that her and my dad are getting me a car for graduation :D so awesome, i want an SUV-type car in silver or green maybe :) or black is fine, i dont mind white. just no blue or red or any other weird color but im pretty excited for that :) anyways, i still have a shitload of homework to do, and cleaning so im going to do that. love you talk to you again soon.

kristin fort.