Oayo Ho.
So i am really sick. like...deathly sick, its hard to breathe, i cough until i gag, my ears are hurting like a bitch and my nose hurts too. Not only that but i have super menstrual cramps so im doubled over in pain and im craving frozen chocolate. which we dont have.
im in a really complain-y mood. its funny how people go back to the same ol' same ol' thing. like they dont learn from their mistakes. and make it over and over again. i realized this from a friend, and from myself. and i also learned from that - that im tired of being constantly dissapointed, dissapointed in him, the way he acts, and the kind of person he is. Im tired of always being second best, of being hated, of being yelled at, and lead on constantly. im tired of being jealous, spiteful and hateful. I think that i am ready to accept my life for what it is, and stop trying to control everything. Im ready to let someone else in. Why should i have to wait constantly until he realizes its me that is the right choice, hes a stupidfuck and he will never think that way, he likes the chase, he likes what is most convinient for him and i say fuck it. i dont
need that shit anymore, and i wont stoop down to that level like i always have, i am so much better than acting like that, and SO much better than him.im really just tired of being so stupid and hopeful all the time. i heard the song 'lips of an angel' again for the first time in years, i was entertained by the fact it used to make me cry due to my feelings. you see, i was a freshfish when that song came out, and around the time i was doubting my relationship with Boy A and thinking i should go for Boy B. and while i was persuing Boy B, i held onto Boy A. in the song, lips of an angel the guy is basically with someone and he loves someone else. just like i was, i told Boy A that i was not going to homecoming when i did in fact go to see if i could dance or at least get with Boy B. LMFAO im so retarded.
Anyways, so on Friday!!! for the first time i heard the song 'Havent Me You Yet' by Michael Buble and i daresay, its my 'feelgood' song. like seriously swaying, dancing, throw your hands up and smile feel-good. ahhh i just love it lol.
anyways though, i finally made 46 hours in fitness lab and i need like...just six more hours to make that 4.0 so i got two 4.0s this quarter yeah! that'll raise my GPA a buncha!!! im
going to go for an hour and a half for the next few days, study my ass of for my anthro final and i shall be high-rollin by wednesday of next week! then i have until april whateverth to party it up for Spring Break. Im actually not going to be doing anything this spring break, im hoping my parents buy another one of those giant garbage can thingies that are like only 200.00, so i can clean the fuck out of my room for Spring Break, then maybe invest in a new desk and paint all my furniture black and then rip off the bamboo on my roof, redo the main light in my room and then paint my walls! i want to paint the bottom half chocolate brown, then the top half a yellow-y beige :) then move my room around of course it'll be fun i think :) then we can clean out our backyard and the rest of the house, and then maybe we might look like normal people? lolanyways, its like 12.05 and i need to sleep to wake up at 7, got a good ol' testy testy tomorrow morning, GO SYMBOLIC LOGICCCC!!!! goodnight yalls, travel well
Kristin Fort.
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