Prom :)

so i realized the other day that i started this blog to talk about my feelings in case i ever need to go back and figure out what i was thinking (since ive done my share of stupid shit) and i was reading some of these posts and realize that ive been covering up what i'm really thinking and feeling because i'm scared of the 4 people i know who regularly read this blog..

so i know ive gotten bad at writing in this blog, ever since i turned 18 things have just been on the fast track, now spring quarter is half over, senior boards are in a week, and graduation is right around the quarter, its scary to see my life flying by so fast.

the first thing i want to get around to talking about is Prom

i had a blast, it was kinda like in the movies and seriously i believe that prom is prolly one of the best nights of your life, because even though a multitude of things went wrong, i still had a hell good time. first of all, i washed my hair the day before which i knew was prolly a bad thing, but oh well, then i started getting ready at 3:30 prom day because i wanted to have my hair and everything all finished before i started on anyone else's hair/makeup/nails so i didnt get screwed over like i did last year for prom. so it was fine and all and i spent a little while looking up music and started straightening my hair *for the french twist i was going to do* then when i started to do the french twist IT WOULD NOT WORK. i tried liek four or five times to get the twist and it wouldnt do it and my hair was falling out and i was freaking out. then i got a massive migrane and started feeling shakey so i went upstairs and got some medicine and some water, came downstairs and tried the twist again with no luck... by the time i was done attempting the french twist again it was 4:30 and chelsea was here, and i know i prolly should have tried to finish my hair and stuff but me being me, i wanted chelsea to look beautiful so i started on her hair, i figured once i had it curled i could pin it up to set it then maybe i'd have time to do my hair and makeup while chelsea's hair was setting. of course that didnt work out either. . . i ended up doing chelsea's hair and nails which her hair was setting and by then it was 5:00. Then i unrolled chelsea's hair and sprayed it, and then was going to put the top up like we practiced and it just didnt look right, so jessica, chelsea and my sister and i spent like twenty minutes figuring out what was wrong looking about it *it turns out all i had to do was push it forward a little to create the full effect* i know i should have left chelsea's hair but like i said i wanted her to look good because i didnt like the dress she picked out and thought it was plain and not so much prom-pretty looking. by the time we finished it was like 5:45 and kailie was going to pick us up at 6:00 for our 6:30 reservation at Azteca. then chelsea went to the bathroom to put on her dress and everything and while she was doing that i STILL should have started to get dressed *mind you i didnt have makeup/jewlery/hair/nails/shoes/dress or anything put on at that time but i got online and wrote to kelly to ask why she wasnt here yet and bitched with her for ten minutes until she finally got offline to come over. then i tried the french twist on my hair again and it didnt work once again so i ratted my hair, hairsprayed it when my mom came in all excited because she didnt finish the back of my dress, i told her to just sew it and she did, then she came downstairs and she finally was able to help me with the french twist which ended up looking very good after many trials, we put three black flowers into my hair, by now it was 6:10 and kailie finally got there, while my mom was putting in the flowers i quickly did my makeup, which im surprised came out beautiful under such circumstances, and started putting on my jewlery as i ran upstairs with my purse, still in my pajammas. then i went into the bathroom and struggled with my corset for five-ten minutes, and then since my dress had a low back i had to use stick on bra cups which are hell to fit to your boobs, and then my mom handed me my dress which i put on. which without my bra, and with the corset ended up being about six inches around too big, so we spent like ten minutes after that trying to pin it to fit *which the pins fell out later* and then while i was putting on my shoes and doing final touches my mom was putting on my nails *which fell off before we even got to Azteca* while kailie and chelsea and jessica and kelly are all bitching about me taking forever which kinda made me mad since i helped all of them Prom day getting ready and i had to get ready super fast. but finally i was done at about 6:45. one regret i did have though was not getting group pics before we left :( i cant get that back which is a shame...dinner was pretty average, on the way to the dance the stupid live like we're dying song came on and the girls were all screaming 'GUNNA LIIIIIIVE LIEK WE"RE DYING" which was amusing to say the least. we got to the dance, took lots of pictures and i swear i've never danced and acted like a loon so much in my life, it was sort of liberating, i felt completely free, the stress, worry, sadness that usually hangs low over my head was gone for the few short hours we were at prom, we stayed until the last song which happened to be a slow song and we left we went out to kailie's car and we saw a guy with a limo and totally ran up to him and asked for his picture, and then i ran over by a cop car which was funny because then i got yelled at for it, then we went to drop jessica off screaming the lyrics to Party in the USA. then kailie took me home and i talked to my mom and then stayed up thinking about prom until 7 the next morning.

i think the best thing about prom was that i felt happy without a date, i've been dreading Prom for so long because i didnt have a date/boyfriend to take me, i've always envisioned it like that, and i didnt have one, and even though i didnt, i still had the time of my freaking life, and i realized i dont need him to make me feel fufilled anymore, i can be happy on my own, even though i wished he was there with me, but i had a shitload of fun and totally wish it was like this last year so i can do it one more time :) i had alot of fun

this post is long and i have things to do. goodnight, travel well

- kristin.