One of my friends announced today that shes getting married. How depressing is that? How depressing is it that all my friends are living out the life i've always dreamt of and im just here. doing nothing, alone, depressed, being with my cat who i call my son. Its damn depressing and secretly i hate it. well no, scratch that, everyone know i'm not satisfied with my life.
Graduation is coming up, i still have school after graduation which is totally lame... but oh well thats what i get for going to CBC and starting a month later than everyone else, its only a week and a day. I signed up for my english placement testing for WSU, where i will be going alone because my friends dont have the drive, the funds, or the desire to go somewhere other than CBC so i'm stuck lonely for the rest of my school life, which is only two years, then a year of student teaching, then im off at a job being that one crazy lonely teacher who hits on parents and stuff...that sounds lovely doesnt it? thats probably going to be me though, i anticipate driving the shittiest car in the lot, being thousands in debt, living off of frozen meals, wearing lame clothes and living in a shanty downtown or something.
maybe its because im getting ill or something, ive just been feeling depressed. this weekend we are painting my room for the first time in the seven years we've lived in this house, horray, instead of wood/seafoam green/gray/white walls we're painting my walls yellow and putting like a brown pattern on the walls with brown on my windowsill and closet doors. we're also getting a bunch of carpet squares too so my room will have carpet... maybe that will make me less depressed...who knows...
We got some graduation invitations from my cousin Joshua, once again i was depressed to see all the fine things he has, like the fancy invites that cost 10.00 each invite and Joshua got 50 invites, also about the bigass party they're having and everything, and its the same weekend as my graduation so all the family are going to his graduation instead of mine cept my aunt Katrina thank god.... but oh well, i look like a fucktard in my hat anyways...
I dont have a psych test tomorrow so i dont have to go study, but i think i'm going to go anyways because im really getting angry/sad so yeah... farewell...
kristin
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Updates And Stuff :)
So today was pretty cool i had a good day. i skipped out on Gym so i could come home and practice for my senior boards. i went to school early so i could help riley practice for his later today, i think he's going to do a good job, when i was presenting i was thinking about his presentation and got messed up for a minute lol!! i wore the CUTEST outfit ever and as always looked fabulous ;D i had four people tell me i looked real pretty so that was awesome :) while i was practicing with riley i took the worst picture EVAR of him lmfao i feel bad, but im totally keeping it in case i ever need to embarass him ;D i was going to fix up my hair for senior boards but like always i underestimated the time it takes to do shit so i didnt have time to fix it all :S oh well.
I sat behind the judges so i got to see my scores ;D i got 'exceeds expectations' in all categories but one from one of the judges but nevertheless i passed and will be graduating :D i can't wait either :D:D:D:D i hope i sit by some cool people or friends or something :D then i will have a few weeks until im done with college until the fall. Kelsey is comming by this week :) im kinda excited to see her again, i havent seen her in almost a whole year so its going to be cool, although idk what we're going to do but yeah. after i finish college my fam and i are going to silverwood for a fun-filled day :) and from July 3-11th i'll be in Canada for a leadership camp :D:D:D im excited just to get away for a week from my fam, plus i'll be in a different country!! my parents need to get on my fucking passport already.... anyways
so im going to go to sleep, i have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a long day, my classical conditioning assignment is due and i have to go to the gym for 1.5 hours with Sergio so i can pass the class again this quarter, its not too bad though :D anyways, so i better go, i wanted to finish watching 90210 tonight and maybe Glee as well, i just finished watching V with my dad and sister, it was fucking GOOD! i watched Gossip Girl yesterday and nearly had a heart attack at all the giant bombs at the end wooooooooo child! it was exciting as hell!!! I will update tomorrow with more stuff i when i get home from the gym, i also have to catch up on my psychology notes and study for my Psych test on Thursday. I wonder when this stressing for senior boards feeling is going to pass lol.
this weekend i have to write a short non-fiction peice for creative writing as well as a reading exercise and writing exercise for my Creative Writing class, work on my 3rd Critical Review for Psych, I have discussion and an Interview Assignemnt im going to B.S. for my Multicultural Communications class also. As for the things i need to do tonight, shower, fill up water thing, clean room, make bed, brush my teeth, start dryer, start washer, start dishwasher, clean the kitchen as well as watch 90210 and Glee :) tata for now, time for beddums :D
as always,
Kristin
I sat behind the judges so i got to see my scores ;D i got 'exceeds expectations' in all categories but one from one of the judges but nevertheless i passed and will be graduating :D i can't wait either :D:D:D:D i hope i sit by some cool people or friends or something :D then i will have a few weeks until im done with college until the fall. Kelsey is comming by this week :) im kinda excited to see her again, i havent seen her in almost a whole year so its going to be cool, although idk what we're going to do but yeah. after i finish college my fam and i are going to silverwood for a fun-filled day :) and from July 3-11th i'll be in Canada for a leadership camp :D:D:D im excited just to get away for a week from my fam, plus i'll be in a different country!! my parents need to get on my fucking passport already.... anyways
so im going to go to sleep, i have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a long day, my classical conditioning assignment is due and i have to go to the gym for 1.5 hours with Sergio so i can pass the class again this quarter, its not too bad though :D anyways, so i better go, i wanted to finish watching 90210 tonight and maybe Glee as well, i just finished watching V with my dad and sister, it was fucking GOOD! i watched Gossip Girl yesterday and nearly had a heart attack at all the giant bombs at the end wooooooooo child! it was exciting as hell!!! I will update tomorrow with more stuff i when i get home from the gym, i also have to catch up on my psychology notes and study for my Psych test on Thursday. I wonder when this stressing for senior boards feeling is going to pass lol.
this weekend i have to write a short non-fiction peice for creative writing as well as a reading exercise and writing exercise for my Creative Writing class, work on my 3rd Critical Review for Psych, I have discussion and an Interview Assignemnt im going to B.S. for my Multicultural Communications class also. As for the things i need to do tonight, shower, fill up water thing, clean room, make bed, brush my teeth, start dryer, start washer, start dishwasher, clean the kitchen as well as watch 90210 and Glee :) tata for now, time for beddums :D
as always,
Kristin
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Prom :)
so i realized the other day that i started this blog to talk about my feelings in case i ever need to go back and figure out what i was thinking (since ive done my share of stupid shit) and i was reading some of these posts and realize that ive been covering up what i'm really thinking and feeling because i'm scared of the 4 people i know who regularly read this blog..
so i know ive gotten bad at writing in this blog, ever since i turned 18 things have just been on the fast track, now spring quarter is half over, senior boards are in a week, and graduation is right around the quarter, its scary to see my life flying by so fast.
the first thing i want to get around to talking about is Prom
i had a blast, it was kinda like in the movies and seriously i believe that prom is prolly one of the best nights of your life, because even though a multitude of things went wrong, i still had a hell good time. first of all, i washed my hair the day before which i knew was prolly a bad thing, but oh well, then i started getting ready at 3:30 prom day because i wanted to have my hair and everything all finished before i started on anyone else's hair/makeup/nails so i didnt get screwed over like i did last year for prom. so it was fine and all and i spent a little while looking up music and started straightening my hair *for the french twist i was going to do* then when i started to do the french twist IT WOULD NOT WORK. i tried liek four or five times to get the twist and it wouldnt do it and my hair was falling out and i was freaking out. then i got a massive migrane and started feeling shakey so i went upstairs and got some medicine and some water, came downstairs and tried the twist again with no luck... by the time i was done attempting the french twist again it was 4:30 and chelsea was here, and i know i prolly should have tried to finish my hair and stuff but me being me, i wanted chelsea to look beautiful so i started on her hair, i figured once i had it curled i could pin it up to set it then maybe i'd have time to do my hair and makeup while chelsea's hair was setting. of course that didnt work out either. . . i ended up doing chelsea's hair and nails which her hair was setting and by then it was 5:00. Then i unrolled chelsea's hair and sprayed it, and then was going to put the top up like we practiced and it just didnt look right, so jessica, chelsea and my sister and i spent like twenty minutes figuring out what was wrong looking about it *it turns out all i had to do was push it forward a little to create the full effect* i know i should have left chelsea's hair but like i said i wanted her to look good because i didnt like the dress she picked out and thought it was plain and not so much prom-pretty looking. by the time we finished it was like 5:45 and kailie was going to pick us up at 6:00 for our 6:30 reservation at Azteca. then chelsea went to the bathroom to put on her dress and everything and while she was doing that i STILL should have started to get dressed *mind you i didnt have makeup/jewlery/hair/nails/shoes/dress or anything put on at that time but i got online and wrote to kelly to ask why she wasnt here yet and bitched with her for ten minutes until she finally got offline to come over. then i tried the french twist on my hair again and it didnt work once again so i ratted my hair, hairsprayed it when my mom came in all excited because she didnt finish the back of my dress, i told her to just sew it and she did, then she came downstairs and she finally was able to help me with the french twist which ended up looking very good after many trials, we put three black flowers into my hair, by now it was 6:10 and kailie finally got there, while my mom was putting in the flowers i quickly did my makeup, which im surprised came out beautiful under such circumstances, and started putting on my jewlery as i ran upstairs with my purse, still in my pajammas. then i went into the bathroom and struggled with my corset for five-ten minutes, and then since my dress had a low back i had to use stick on bra cups which are hell to fit to your boobs, and then my mom handed me my dress which i put on. which without my bra, and with the corset ended up being about six inches around too big, so we spent like ten minutes after that trying to pin it to fit *which the pins fell out later* and then while i was putting on my shoes and doing final touches my mom was putting on my nails *which fell off before we even got to Azteca* while kailie and chelsea and jessica and kelly are all bitching about me taking forever which kinda made me mad since i helped all of them Prom day getting ready and i had to get ready super fast. but finally i was done at about 6:45. one regret i did have though was not getting group pics before we left :( i cant get that back which is a shame...dinner was pretty average, on the way to the dance the stupid live like we're dying song came on and the girls were all screaming 'GUNNA LIIIIIIVE LIEK WE"RE DYING" which was amusing to say the least. we got to the dance, took lots of pictures and i swear i've never danced and acted like a loon so much in my life, it was sort of liberating, i felt completely free, the stress, worry, sadness that usually hangs low over my head was gone for the few short hours we were at prom, we stayed until the last song which happened to be a slow song and we left we went out to kailie's car and we saw a guy with a limo and totally ran up to him and asked for his picture, and then i ran over by a cop car which was funny because then i got yelled at for it, then we went to drop jessica off screaming the lyrics to Party in the USA. then kailie took me home and i talked to my mom and then stayed up thinking about prom until 7 the next morning.
i think the best thing about prom was that i felt happy without a date, i've been dreading Prom for so long because i didnt have a date/boyfriend to take me, i've always envisioned it like that, and i didnt have one, and even though i didnt, i still had the time of my freaking life, and i realized i dont need him to make me feel fufilled anymore, i can be happy on my own, even though i wished he was there with me, but i had a shitload of fun and totally wish it was like this last year so i can do it one more time :) i had alot of fun
this post is long and i have things to do. goodnight, travel well
- kristin.
so i know ive gotten bad at writing in this blog, ever since i turned 18 things have just been on the fast track, now spring quarter is half over, senior boards are in a week, and graduation is right around the quarter, its scary to see my life flying by so fast.
the first thing i want to get around to talking about is Prom
i had a blast, it was kinda like in the movies and seriously i believe that prom is prolly one of the best nights of your life, because even though a multitude of things went wrong, i still had a hell good time. first of all, i washed my hair the day before which i knew was prolly a bad thing, but oh well, then i started getting ready at 3:30 prom day because i wanted to have my hair and everything all finished before i started on anyone else's hair/makeup/nails so i didnt get screwed over like i did last year for prom. so it was fine and all and i spent a little while looking up music and started straightening my hair *for the french twist i was going to do* then when i started to do the french twist IT WOULD NOT WORK. i tried liek four or five times to get the twist and it wouldnt do it and my hair was falling out and i was freaking out. then i got a massive migrane and started feeling shakey so i went upstairs and got some medicine and some water, came downstairs and tried the twist again with no luck... by the time i was done attempting the french twist again it was 4:30 and chelsea was here, and i know i prolly should have tried to finish my hair and stuff but me being me, i wanted chelsea to look beautiful so i started on her hair, i figured once i had it curled i could pin it up to set it then maybe i'd have time to do my hair and makeup while chelsea's hair was setting. of course that didnt work out either. . . i ended up doing chelsea's hair and nails which her hair was setting and by then it was 5:00. Then i unrolled chelsea's hair and sprayed it, and then was going to put the top up like we practiced and it just didnt look right, so jessica, chelsea and my sister and i spent like twenty minutes figuring out what was wrong looking about it *it turns out all i had to do was push it forward a little to create the full effect* i know i should have left chelsea's hair but like i said i wanted her to look good because i didnt like the dress she picked out and thought it was plain and not so much prom-pretty looking. by the time we finished it was like 5:45 and kailie was going to pick us up at 6:00 for our 6:30 reservation at Azteca. then chelsea went to the bathroom to put on her dress and everything and while she was doing that i STILL should have started to get dressed *mind you i didnt have makeup/jewlery/hair/nails/shoes/dress or anything put on at that time but i got online and wrote to kelly to ask why she wasnt here yet and bitched with her for ten minutes until she finally got offline to come over. then i tried the french twist on my hair again and it didnt work once again so i ratted my hair, hairsprayed it when my mom came in all excited because she didnt finish the back of my dress, i told her to just sew it and she did, then she came downstairs and she finally was able to help me with the french twist which ended up looking very good after many trials, we put three black flowers into my hair, by now it was 6:10 and kailie finally got there, while my mom was putting in the flowers i quickly did my makeup, which im surprised came out beautiful under such circumstances, and started putting on my jewlery as i ran upstairs with my purse, still in my pajammas. then i went into the bathroom and struggled with my corset for five-ten minutes, and then since my dress had a low back i had to use stick on bra cups which are hell to fit to your boobs, and then my mom handed me my dress which i put on. which without my bra, and with the corset ended up being about six inches around too big, so we spent like ten minutes after that trying to pin it to fit *which the pins fell out later* and then while i was putting on my shoes and doing final touches my mom was putting on my nails *which fell off before we even got to Azteca* while kailie and chelsea and jessica and kelly are all bitching about me taking forever which kinda made me mad since i helped all of them Prom day getting ready and i had to get ready super fast. but finally i was done at about 6:45. one regret i did have though was not getting group pics before we left :( i cant get that back which is a shame...dinner was pretty average, on the way to the dance the stupid live like we're dying song came on and the girls were all screaming 'GUNNA LIIIIIIVE LIEK WE"RE DYING" which was amusing to say the least. we got to the dance, took lots of pictures and i swear i've never danced and acted like a loon so much in my life, it was sort of liberating, i felt completely free, the stress, worry, sadness that usually hangs low over my head was gone for the few short hours we were at prom, we stayed until the last song which happened to be a slow song and we left we went out to kailie's car and we saw a guy with a limo and totally ran up to him and asked for his picture, and then i ran over by a cop car which was funny because then i got yelled at for it, then we went to drop jessica off screaming the lyrics to Party in the USA. then kailie took me home and i talked to my mom and then stayed up thinking about prom until 7 the next morning.
i think the best thing about prom was that i felt happy without a date, i've been dreading Prom for so long because i didnt have a date/boyfriend to take me, i've always envisioned it like that, and i didnt have one, and even though i didnt, i still had the time of my freaking life, and i realized i dont need him to make me feel fufilled anymore, i can be happy on my own, even though i wished he was there with me, but i had a shitload of fun and totally wish it was like this last year so i can do it one more time :) i had alot of fun
this post is long and i have things to do. goodnight, travel well
- kristin.
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